Being afriad of ones self.

[Tayace]

Sometimes when i'm angry i come close to losing control of my actions. Its almost like instinct takes over. One day my younger brother got right in my face because i told him he was being rude and that he should grow up. When it happened it was like all of time stopped. Seconds felt like minutes. I was looking into my brothers dark eyes only 4-6 inches away from my face. In those seconds i had planned exactly what would happen if i had stopped resisting this violent urge within myself. It was like looking into the future and seeing what would happen to him if i had not let it go. I resisted and he walked away without being taught a lesson.

This is just one of many similar cases. Is it normal to fear ones own power and potential?

[Monnocle]

I can definitely relate to what you're talking about. My instinctive reactions to those kind of situations tend to be creatively violent actually. When those instincts kick in it feels like you're fighting the very muscles in your own body. There was a time that it took my friend screaming in my ear and every fiber of my being not to react to what someone had done to me, but i knew it wouldn't have ended well.

It is normal to fear one's own power and potential. It took me a while to actually control myself but it wasn't easy. It takes help and/or determination.
I hope this has helped.

[Terry]

I wouldn't call a violent outburst "power and potential", more of a lack of those. Anyone can give in to feelings of anger and act on them. But I do know what you are talking about, in being afraid of what you feel like doing in a particularly emotional state, most people I know would as well.