so the events from last night....

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started off brilliant. nice meal with ben(boyfriend) great sex, normal day till we got to the same pub we go to every few nights. basically i got drunk, like normal. and i was all over ben cos he usually tells me i don't pay enough attention to him so i tried to make sure i was always touching him. basically this guy starting hitting on me. i ddin't realize cos i told him i had a boyfriend and he was hitting on my friend. then i stole some of this guys drink and gave him a kiss on the cheek infront of my boyfriend as i didn;t think it was a problem and i wasn't hiding anything. then i walked up to ben and hugged him he whacked me away from him and i followed him cos he was anry. he was screaming shouting and punching things. i just sat there. he grabbed me by my face and asked what my fucking problem was. a didn't say anything, then he went back to the pub and punched that guy i kissed on the cheek. ben came back covered in blood. screamed at me more then the police had seen our fight on cctv camera and came down cos they thought he was gonna hurt me. they took all mine and his details and gave me a number to call incase it gets bad. then we started walking home and ben kept asking me what had a learnt from this in a really patronising way. and i just felt like shit. i have cheated so manytimes before on my ex and i'm good at lying about it and keeping it a secret. so if i was gonna cheat or if i was hitting on thsi guy i wouldnn't do it infront of him. i was actually fucking scared of my boyfriend. like proper scared. =S