Fed up

[xxbeckyxx999]

Wow, I haven't used this site in so long now but I've missed it.

I'm starting to get fed up of life in general. Things seem to be always going in circles, nothing new seems to happen, and I don't help that by not talking to new people. I mean suddenly two of my exs have come back into my life. One just wanting sex (as usual) and the other just seems to want to chat (which I have nothing against).

I'm now with someone but she lives a couple of hours away so we haven't actually met yet but I seem to think I'm the only one who's making an effect eventhough I know she is. Work is getting in the way for her and money for me. I really like how things are going between us but I feel a bit trapped. Not in the relationship but the fact I can't talk about it. She's trans so some people are awkward with it. People will either refuse to listen or will just dismiss it. Someone has always got something against what I'm doing. And that's just life but it gets me down.

The other thing that's bothering me is the fact I told someone that their actions have left me mentally damaged, I can't get close to partners now without sheer panic kicking in. Before this I hadn't told anyone. She laughed and took it as an ego boost. I don't understand why I still talk to her, I really dont.

I feel a lot better now

[Amberpamber]

Hey Rebecca, feel free to pm me if you ever need any1 to talk too I'll always listen <3