If You Really Knew Me...

[Tigerlily.]

Okay, I'm going to add some that I forgot to put into the video.

If you really knew me, you'd know that:
I'm pansexual
I have multiple crushes
I'm currently with someone
I love her and I hate that I've hurt her more than she knows
I've cheated on her, and I haven't told her yet
My ex-boyfriend sexually assaulted me at Homecoming
I was with him when I was with her
I broke up with him because he was cheating on me
I feel like a two faced bitch
I feel like a slut
I'm sorry that I'm still here sometimes
Especially a lot lately

That's what you would know, if you really knew me.

[jojo92]

if you really knew me...
you'd know i'm not good at this type of thing
you'd know i never let any one in
you'd know i cut and burn and puke all so i can hust myself
you'd know i'm bipolar
you'd know i'm bi
you'd know i was raped and had an abortion
you'd know i've lived in homeless shelters
you'd know i've been kicked out
you'd know i've been adopted
you'd know i've been in foster care
you'd know i was physically abused by 3 men in my life
you'd know everyone hates me
you'd know i hate myself even more
you'd know i'm struggling every day
you'd know i try to hide what i feel, so i don't burden anymore
you'd know why you don't want to know me

[christXnichole23]

If you really knew me....
you'd know i struggle everyday just to wake up in the morning.
you'd know i get made fun of everyday for being myself,
you'd know i'm so lonely i talk to my tummy like i have a baby in it,
because no one else will listen to what i have to say.
you'd know these walls hold my secrets and these cuts hold my mistakes.
you'd know the only reason i'm still here is because you won't let me leave...

[minniemouseprincess]

If you really knew me...

*you'd know that I have this need to be loved
*you'd know because of that need, i've had at least 3 bfs online all before I was 15. All of which ended not so great.
*you'd know I feel both immature and more mature than people my age
*you'd know im scared of growing up and because of that, wear kind of immature clothes and like immature things
*you'd know I feel misunderstood and like nobody can relate to me
*you'd know I love my best friend more than anything in the world
*you'd know I wish my best friend could do simple things like hug me or hold my hand more often (there's a reason she can't)
*you'd know I care so much for people that it hurts myself sometimes
*you'd know i've suffered with terrifying and bad thoughts for 2 years
*you'd know I have anxiety and always have
*you'd know that even though I know I can't save the world for people, I still try
*you'd know i've thought of suicide and hurting myself but never been able to do ether of those things
*you'd know I sometimes wonder if i'm straight or bi
*you'd know I played with dolls up until age 15 or 16
*you'd know I think MJ is a genius and one of the best people to ever live on this earth
*you'd know I am so shy that sometimes I don't say hi to people I know well when I see them
*you'd know I hate it when people are mad at me
*you'd know I am afraid of being alone
*you'd know even when I tell someone whats happening with me, I feel guilty cause I think i'm burdening them
*you'd know I hate myself sometimes
*you'd know me and my sister have not had the best relationship, mostly because of me
*you'd know that im a strong believer in being yourself
*you'd know I have a hard time saying no
*you'd know change is really hard for me
*you'd know that i've been afraid that I rely too much on medication sometimes
*you'd know it makes me SO happy to make people laugh or know that i've made them happy
*you'd know that I buy my closest friends presents all the time because it makes them happy
*you'd know I think i'm a terrible friend a lot of the time
*you'd know I've always wanted a baby girl even when I was a baby girl myself
*you'd know that I wish I wasn't so sensitive and easily hurt

[JollyRancher.]

If you knew me, you would know

That behind my smile, i am crying
That im actually dying from inside out
That i may have a serious brain problem
That ive almost died more than 6 times each year
That im insecure with everything i do
That im really smart but dont want to be called a nerd
That i tend to tense up when a guy i dont know gets behind me
That i love Valentine's day but i hate being single

If you really knew me, you would know a lot more than this

[minniemouseprincess]

Thought of more

*you'd know I have had numerous friends with different issues so I have pretty much heard every story and situation
*you'd know that if I tell you i'll always be there, i'm telling the truth
*you'd know I wanna make a difference in somebody (or somebodies) life=)

[Illuminate]

If you really knew me...

You'd know I have a low self esteem.

[Eldora]

- You'd know I have a phobia of phones;
- I'm extremely shy, but I also have a short fuse that people would do better to avoid;
- I tend to be a bit violent and throw things;
- I easily get spazz over the smallest things;
- I get really embarrassed very, very easily;
- Did I mention I'm afraid of phones?
- I sing practically all the time;
- And I have very little faith or trust in anything;
- I am very frightened of just about anything, and get really irritated when I'm scared.

[Mercyfall]

Originally Posted by butterfly2014

If you really knew me you'd know:
I automatically assume your life is better than mine.
I have at some point thought that I offended you.
I say sorry almost constantly.
I am constantly feeling guilty, and I don't always know why.
I'm the quiet girl, because if I start talking about myself, you'll hear bad things.
I will look at you, or anyone else, and think of how much better you are than me.
I read all the time, and write, but never anything meaningful.
I will never meet your gaze.

"I automatically assume your life is better than mine.
I have at some point thought that I offended you.
I say sorry almost constantly.
I am constantly feeling guilty, and I don't always know why."

This sounds exactly like me, lol. I'm working on it, though.

[Kate*]

Originally Posted by Kate*

If you really knew me you would know:

It's hard for me to trust adults because of how they've treated me
They aren't the only ones who've hurt me
That the damage they've done has left scars, even if it doesn't always hurt
That I now consider myself recovered from everything
That it's still a struggle sometimes
I still fear failing and criticism in all it's forms only because it hurts so much to lose something you've wanted for so long or to be told how bad someone else thinks you are at something you thought you were good at
I don't know what my talents are although I'm sure I must have at least one
As much as I love helping people, I desperately want someone to return the favor, someone who I can talk to for hours just to get it all out

If you offend me or criticize me I automatically start thinking "well I'm better than you because.." without even trying
I believe my points are always right, or at least valid on some level
I may not have confidence, but I will fight for a point or cause that I really believe in
If you offend me or anyone close to me you'll know it immediately because I will take your head off for it.

[minniemouseprincess]

One more

*you'd know since I had 3 bfs online at a young age, i am now really nervous and anxious about getting close to any friends online that are boys or whenever boys say nice things to me

[Sea Monkey]

I'm going to make a video at some point but for now, I'll do what everybody else has done and write it.

If you knew me you'd know:

That I find it hard to socialise and interact with people. I'm scared that people dislike me.
That a lot of people hate me.
That I find it hard to fit in.
That I get bullied an awful lot.
That I'm not as 'hyper' as I may seem. It's just a cover-up.
That I'm scared to go out and get anxious around people.
That I want to be perfect and I feel ugly.
That I lack intelligence.
That I find myself annoying and worry that you find me an annoyance too.
That I don't REALLY fantasize about Lemons in reality.
That my smiles are fake.

[George^^]

If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm not who I seem.
If you really knew me, you'd know I've been hurt.
You'd know that I love my best friend.
That I hate who I am because I'm never good enough.
That I love reading books and stories that aren't exactly what you expect.

If you really knew me, you wouldn't fall for my lies.