A Child Without a Home

[ThePunkAlien]

A CHILD WITHOUT A HOME



All these years I spent in silence.
Forging a forever pact to forgetfulness.
Hiding my feelings behind a mask.
Losing sight of her face.
Numb, I became.

Years passed.
Shadows danced.
Memories are triggered anew.

Confusing spirals in my head.

Love, hate.

Joy, sadness.

Inquisitive, fear.

A never ending maelstrom.

The primordial wound has opened a new.
Rendering a newborn child.
How can it be that all these feelings were lost to me?

Regress to the point that I can no longer suppress.
Scream your name out in vain and anger.
Crying to be held in your arms.
Mom, I need you now more than ever.

It's said a mother can sense it's child,
Can she feel what I am going through?

Stuck in a forever bond of silence,
Constructed by society.

The three way triangle set at birth.
The adoptee desperately wants the answers.
The adopters fear a sense of losing control.
The mother awaits to be the known.

Never felt so alone,
stuck in my misery.
My parents, they cannot heal these wounds.
If mentioned, deception they fear anew.

No answers.
No faces.
Just shadows.
Not a home.

Wondering along this road,
Lost Memories as I've been told.
Grieving that which was never known.

I am all alone.

Hopefully, someday,
I'll find, somewhere, deep inside,
A place to call my home.