Walking down the street,
Iím no one special to meet.
My life story is full with sadness,
Torn, disaster, hurt and madness.
Iím building a wall of confusion and lies,
So no one can hear my silent cries.
Iíve become quite the creature of masquerade,
Hiding my heart that has decayed.
I tried to put down the mask that hides my fear,
I was afraid to let you near.
But I let you bring your Trojan horse into my wall,
Diseased from within and now it falls.
I try to rebuild the wall and sturdy the defenses,
I canít feel anything, appeal to the senses.
If Iím unwanted then thereís no need,
To play with my mind and keep me deceived.
I will go back to where I was,
An empty soul just because,
At least it was not a lie,
And so I shall not cry.
Self-harm free since 10.1.2013
"You have not failed if you learned something from it."
"Life's not about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain"
"Weak heart, Dying soul, Falling apart, Make me whole, These broken blues, Peirce your being, Hide the truth, You won't be seeing."
"Deeper, Deeper, Deeper inside me I live a life that seems to be a lost reality."