Triggering (SH): Best Fri[end]

[brokensmilexx]

What happened to Best friends till the end?
Was what happened really so bad you had to descend into the dark and hate
Telling me I'm shit, trying to make me fall into that pit
But it won't happen, I'm stronger then that now, I would sit and wait for you to crawl out
But the things you've said and done can't ever be erased.
And why would I ever wait for you after you left me in the dust?
I was the one who was always there for you, and you returned the favor
No words could describe our stupid behavior
Our friendship was something to savor
Being friends for fucking 10 years, that's major
We barely fought, hung out a lot, smoked a ton of pot
You were more of a sister then a friend
And I swear I loved you till the end
But you saw love in another way and I know saying sorry won't mend anything I had to say
So I'm done sending myself to that part of me that misses you
I know you miss me too, we're just too stuborn to work it out together
And every time I see your stupid sweater I have to take a breath and say 'This is better'
See you were my sister, I thought you'd never leave
But you walked out of my life and left a cold breeze
The scars under my sleeves are all healed,
I'm no longer pealing pain away with my knife
But it still doesn't mean I feel okay with life
I'm still off balanced, I wish you were here
But sometimes friendships need to tear
If someone isn't willing to bear the pain.
I'm honestly not trying to gain anything here
I'm just tired of the stain of pain tinting every memory I have of you
Cause I know even if we talked it out nothing would ever be the same
And honestly that's a fucking shame,
We were like two peas in a pod
Now your cursing my name to god
Telling people lies, breaking promises and ties of friendship we made together
I think I deserve much better
Jealousy ate you alive, sometimes I hope you cry
I hope you realize, you made a mistake
Yeah I know I fucked up too, but how was I supposed to know you loved me the way you do?
Honestly, we were so close and now your calling me gross, whore, slut.
Man I could have ruined your life so many times, I still could
But I won't, cause I don't want to cause pain in anyway
I didn't meant to hurt you, stupid.
Cupid didn't stab you with no arrow of love from above
I wished you could have just given those feeling a shove
But you couldn't, wouldn't..
So 10 years of friendship is burnt to the ground
I'm not going to frown
Shit happens, life goes on
My feelings are gone
You're nothing now..just another face in the crowd

..Its been like 4-5 months since my best friend and I got in a fight over things (you pretty much get the jist if you read abovee). I have tried to write something about it - that's usually how I get my true feelings out and shiiz - but I couldn't until now. Anyways, please tell me what you think

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[GoneBeyondRepair]

i really like this. its very well written and obiously full of emotion and truths of how you feel. i can relate in some aspects of it too

[brokensmilexx]

Thank you, <33

[GoneBeyondRepair]

your welcome<3

[Iris. ♥]

I really like this. It tells a clear story, and your emotions come across really well in it. Keep up the good work!

[brokensmilexx]

Thanks, glad you like it (:
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