Just wondering what someone else would do in this situation.

[Beetlejuice]

Well, it's kinda hard for me to explain so I hope this makes sense.
Basically I'm engaged to an amazing guy and he's been my first everything. and by everything, I mean everything, first proper boyfriend, first kiss, first sexual partner, everything :L I'm ecstatic that he wants to be with me in the long term as I feel the same way about him.

The only catch is I'm really bi-curious, possibly bisexual but I wont know until I...you know, do some experimenting?
He's said (in practically these exact words) he's totally fine with me getting with girls as long as he gets to watch. Problem is (if I did do some experimenting) I wouldn't want my first time to be in front of someone as I'd be nervous and self conscious enough as it is. And I could never cheat on him, ever, I'm not that sort of person, it wouldn't be fair on him and I'd feel so awful about it. I could also never break up with him just to have an excuse to try being with women as that's not fair on him, I couldn't stand not being with him and I don't know if he'd still want me after.

So I'm kinda stuck... :L I just wondered what any of you lot would do, that's all
I guess, when your curious about something or just confused about your sexuality it'd be nice to know. But oh well, time will tell whether I am or not I guess

[Beetlejuice]

Just realised this is the wrong area, feel free to move it :L

[escape_thereal_world]

I've felt the same way in a sense. I have been with girls, but we never acknowledged anything happened. My boyfriend thinks it's hot for girl/girl action, but would not feel comfortable with my actually doing anything.

When I really thought about it, I realized I am happy and content in our relationship and our sex life. I would never want to jeopardize it, and since I am happy there is no reason for me to want anything else.

So, problem solved. Granted, it took me a few months to come to this conclusion :P It's just fun to experiment and we are both young. It's only natural to want to experiment. But question if it's important enough to keep pondering. And if you keep pondering, is it worth it to go the rest of your life without knowing?

Personally, I didn't think it was worth pondering over anymore. So I stopped.

By the way, I've posted in the wrong area before hehe. Not a big deal.

[Beetlejuice]

Put it like that and it makes it much clearer
So what if i'm curious, I don't wanna jeopardise what I've got
Thanks ^_^

Yeah I was just in this area and thought "hey I might as well post this" and forgot there was a sexuality based area and then realised after

[escape_thereal_world]

I hope that didn't sound judgmental.

But that's what happened to me. So if you still get curious, don't feel bad. It's normal!

[Beetlejuice]

Oh no don't worry it didn't! I got what you meant and realised I feel similarly

[Aletheia*]

If you seriously thinking about experimenting with a girl, you should talk to your boyfriend about the first time it happens. Explain to him that you don't want to cheat or break up with him just to experiment with the same sex, but you also don't want him to be there the first time it happens due to insecurities. I would explain to him that once you've become comfortable with the idea, then it could happen.

[Beetlejuice]

thanks But I think I'm gonna wait a few years before seriously acting on it. I don't want to jeopardise what I have and, who knows, it might just be a phase and it'll blow over if I still feel the same way when I'm older I'll act on it, thank you though x