Scared and Alone

[Hatred.]

Hi... Well first of all, I'm a Christian. I go to a Christian school. And I'm a lesbian. For those of you who don't know, most of us believe homosexuals go to hell because God referred to them as"detestable" many times in the Bible. I only have one friend, and she's the only one who knows. She hasn't avoided me, out of pity, I guess. She also knows about my home life and my deppression. But now everythin is awkward to her. I tap her shoulder to get her attention and she shudders. Things like that. And it hurts. I cut myself every day, and I've attempted suicide a couple of times. I don't want to live any more, but I don't want to go to hell. Please give advice, but please don't bash my religion. I am not going to stop believing it, but I will NOT be involved in a religious debate.

[Troubled_Heart]

I go to a christian school as well... the bible has been translated so many times and there are so many errors you cannot trust it completly. It is also mainly corinthians that have the stuff about homosexuality, that is Paul's view and he had very strong views. There is also a lot of things about guys being gay but not much about lesbians, it talks about a man with a man but not a woman with a woman. God made you and he made you lesbian, that means he will love you as you are. God is also meant to be forgiving and that means he will forgive you. There are a lot of people who won't understand why you are gay, they think that it is a chosen lifestyle because they don't understand but you wouldn't be happy being something you're not so it isn't chosen at all, it's the way God made you. Your God loves you because he created you and you are faithful, no one but your God can tell you otherwise.
Suicide is an act that can send you to hell, God gave you life and it is disrespectful to commit suicide, there are also more arguments on this but that isn't the point... You shouldn't be cutting because of who you are when you are perfect in everyway.
This isn't a bash on your religion but if God doesn't accept you why would you want to worship him? You can still believe. It was his choice to create the world and if he doesn't like what he created that's his fault. Anyway it's your life and you should be proud of yourself and just remember how great you really are. Also liberal Christians are supportive of gay rights etc... maybe you should see if there are any people like that where you live to talk to you and reasure you. But you are not alone, on here we are happy to help. PM me if you want to talk ok? <3 Go in Peace!

[TheCrowing]

I am Catholic and I put so much faith in God. Here's my way of looking at this (and I have told many LGBTQ people who have brought up this topic):

Their God may not love me, but mine does. My God made me who I am, so I'm taking advantage of the gifts he has bestowed upon me and I am thanking him for making me who I am. If he wanted me to be a lesbian, then why should I try to change God's will? Going against His will and his initial creation is against my beliefs. Therefore, I am not ashamed to be who I am.

And about your friend.. Have you talked to her about this? Ask her why she feels uncomfortable.. if she's says it's because you are a lesbian.. Ask her if she likes every guy she sees. If the answer is no (which is should be), then talk to her about how you don't like every girl you see in that way. I understand that it's a tough topic to get into, but the only way to either get acceptance or closure is to have a common understanding about what's going on.

[Sythan]

God made you the way you are sweety, the Bible was written by men, not by God.

If you are suicidal, please call the Trevor Project. They are an suicide hotline that Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, or Transgender Youth call if they are suicidal or depressed or just need to let their feelings out.

It is completely confidential, no one will know you called. Here is the number: 1-866-488-7386

[enfantreve]

I am a devout Roman-Catholic and I am gay. The way I look at it: God made me who I am. God made me gay. God created a gay son and so why would He be against me and my sexuality? He made it that way! Just hang in there, babe. Life is tough now, but it will get easier sooner or later!

[colie18]

I agree with everyone else.. I am a catholic and so is my whole family. I am also bi. Like everyone else said... God made me this way for a specific reason if he didn't want me this way then why would he make me this way?

God made you for a reason and that reason is to educate others. If he didn't want you the way you are then why would he make you that way?

[Out of the dark.]

Have you read John 4:16 in the New International version of the Bible? It says

And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them.

My thinking is that God made you just the way you are, there is nothing wrong with you. If God loves all his children, then he loves his gay children too. I am not Christian, but I was raised Christian. I was also taught that gays go to hell. Untill I met this Bishop, Bishop Gene Robinson (google him). He is gay and a Bishop. He basically said that God loves you no matter what.

Hurting yourself is not the answer. There is more to life than high school. Check out the It gets better project, it's really inspirational. Also, the Trevor hotline is really useful if you are feeling suicidal. Don't give up hun, it gets better.