I just... don't know

[HushedAtonement]

I'll start by saying I'm sixteen. I've been to a co-ed school, now I go to an all-girls school. I've never had a boyfriend or a girlfriend, I've never kissed anyone, had sex or /anything/. In short, I have absolutely no experience with anything.

Society being what society is, I didn't get to the question of my sexuality until, well until Glee and some other TV shows and books, I guess. My family is neither overly religious or has ever even breached the sexuality issue. My step-dad at most, when I talked non-stop about Adam Lambert and how homophobic people where with remarks about him, but he seemed to be making a joke.

I'm scared. Because I have never had any experience to tell me anything.
All I know is that whenever I see a gay couple on TV shows, in books or in real life, I am so so jealous. I am fiercely protective of my opinion on gay rights and even the slightest homophobic insult makes me so, so incredibly angry.

Looking back, I know that I usually look at girls more often than guys. I've always figured it was what everyone did, lately, I don't think that's so much the case. I know a girl online, whenever she comes online or I talk to her, I get almost giddy. I know that sounds silly or dangerous, but seriously, please don't say anything about online friends and what could happen and stuff, I get that enough from so-called 'friends' in real life.

All I know is that I think about girls more than boys. I look after girls more than boys. If I really try to imagine what I find attractive about a guy I deemed "hot" because my friends said so, I honestly have no clue. I feel no attraction at all toward them. And if anything, I tend to go for the feminine ones anyway.

On top of that, the thought of actually having sex with a guy repulses me. The thought of kissing seems okay, but doesn't really do anything. The thought of kissing a girl gives me a slightly butterfly-ish feeling, though.

So really, I'm confused. Is it possible to know whether I am gay or bi, even if I have no experience to draw on?

Thanks to anyone who reads the whole rambling mess and can help <3

[Soliloquy]

Hi there!

Yes, it is possible to be able to know your sexuality without any "experience" to draw from. Just think of it this way: How do people know they're straight? Well, the same concept can apply to those in the LGBT community. In my personal experience, I've always felt that I was gay. I've never had a boyfriend and have had minimal experience dating girls. Yet it feels right to me, and I honestly can't say I've ever really thought of a guy as anything other than a friend.

Take your time in deciding what you are. It's okay to be unsure. Go with what feels best to you.

Best of luck!

[killrsRquiet]

well if you think about it bi isnt that far from gay :P you might be because of what you said about you going for the feminine ones but again can you see yourself kissing them or anything like that? and yes you can know what you are without having experience because its not about the experience its about your personal preference. for example whys your favorite color your favorite color? you dont know it just is and your naturally attracted to it. but your going to have to be the ultimate one who decides weather your bi or gay