Depressed Rant

[Shadow90]

It’s been a terrible week for me. Two weeks ago, I broke up with my girlfriend. It was hard but I had to. She was extremely controlling and demanding to talk to me at all times. Then, this week, a girl who helped me through it all, told me that we were only friends. She had turned me down in 2007, but we had remained good friends. I had been getting strong feelings for her as she was helping me and comforting me. But I guess she didn’t feel the same way.

So anyway, it all has me depressed. I’ve had trouble with depression in the past. I just end up feeling sad for a long time. I had been working to make myself better. I was working out and was buying new clothes. I was even looking at new eye glass frames and weighing the option of eye surgery. I was looking and feeling great until this happened. I’ve had little success with girls. I starting to realize that the only reason my first and only gf to date stayed with me was because we were both desperate for a partner. I still talk with some of her friends and they reassure me that I’ve got a good fashion sense. I wear sports shirts and casual dress shirts usually. My hair is just normal; I don’t really style it much. As much as they tell me I look ok, whenever I go somewhere that you would meet girls at, it feels like girls either ignore me or laugh behind me. It just doesn’t seem like anything is working.

I know this sounds like a rant, but I have no clue what I’m doing wrong. I always read advice online and get it from my friends. It just feels like I still screw up. I’ve been rejected so many times I don’t even like thinking about it. I’m tired of feeling this way. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I’m way too scared or rejection to approach anyone by myself. On a grading scale of dating, I get an F. I want the confidence, but after being bullied and made fun of for years, and being pushed around by my ex, it’s hard.

[Katara]

Trust me, I feel your pain! I have the exact same issue I feel like I should be confident, I'm just not. I think you might actually be me from another dimension :P

The only thing I'd say your doing wrong is trying too hard to find someone, I also have that problem, it really doesn't work. Just try to relax and enjoy yourself and someone will come along, probably when you least expect it