my life story basically.

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So im 17
so far in my life ive only been in real lackluster relationships.
so lackluster that ive never even had sex with a girl i was dating,
I lasted 4 months in my longest relationship and i barely even cared for the girl

I want a deep and meaningful relationship but i simply cant find a girl, when i finally meet a girl i really like theyre taken

OR i screw it up on the first or second date. I feel this is because i lack self confidence. Im not a smooth talker at all. I didnt have the best childhood, and im also ahead of my class year (im in college already) so alot of girls think im immature purely because of my age.

its not like im desperate to find a girlfriend, i just feel crazy jealous when i see other people in these amazing relationships and im either in a lackluster one or single.

any advice, stories relating to this topic, it would all be appreciated...
thanks

[PSY]

I personally haven't been in your situation, but I know you're definitely not alone in your struggle to find a meaningful relationship. All I can really say is... give it time. Keep meeting as many girls as you can, and spend some time getting to know them better as friends first. Yes, there is always the risk of slipping into the "friend zone"... but confidence in yourself is attractive to women. If you can maintain a certain level of confidence, charm, etc. then you're more likely to be seen as a potential boyfriend by your female friends.

[Silverstar]

still how could i show self confidence when i lack it, i get nervous pretty easy as soon as i feel i have a chance with a girl i actually like

[PSY]

Self-confidence is something you have to develop over time. There isn't a single teenager in the world who was "born" with self-confidence. =P They developed it based on their experiences and what they learned from them. That's why you have to keep meeting girls and spending time with them as friends. The more often you do this (even if it's not entirely comfortable at first), the more natural it will feel, and that'll increase your self-confidence. Then, you can move on to the dating scene.