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ughh, so i haventt been on teen help for a while cuz everythingg was goingg finee but noww everythingg just suckss, my girlfriend brokee up with me(Im Bi) with excusess like i need to focus on my futuree ndd gradess (shes a senior) and she said that she didnt want to get me in trouble with my parents( they dont know im bi) then shes like i might be falling in love withh youu to soon andd blahh blahhh. ughh it hurtt we didnt go out forr long but i did like/lovee herr. andd my schooll, ahhh schooll my favoritee placeee.. school just suckss and im not doingg goodd so my mom is beingg mean and is likee you cant go outt to anywheree.. and i missed my homecoming last weekend and all my friends were theree and todayy i was just about to leave for the movies and shes likee noo. everyythinngg just suckkss, and thenn it suckss someeemoreee. idk if i put this in the right category cuz a lil bit of a couple of themm butt me and mom were neverr gooodd. my stepdad leaves for a bussiness trip then shes wants to be all funnyy and nicee to be and then when he comes backk shes wants to ignoree mee.. my older sisterr moved out at 15 and im 16 noww.. i cantt takee it. ive even cut myslef and everythimee i get upsett i tryy sooo hardd to cut again..its hardd!. and a bunchh of otherr things havee happened with my family, reall dad, stepdad, older sis, etc. i hadd a reallyy bad childhooodd. im not that smartt so i cant live up to the standards theyy sett forr me.. ive thought about running away, living somewhere else but there is no where else for me to liveee where i woulddd happyyy.. i just need advicee on EVERYYTHINGG. *:''(* ~ i typed really fast and i didnt care for the mistakess i madee so excuse that and right now im not in the mood to correct them.. ughhh. *SIGHH*
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Last edited by Intoxication; October 9th 2011 at 03:36 PM.
Since she is giving you mixed signals, I would wait a little bit to let her get her thoughts in order and then try talking to her again. She probably doesn't like that your parents don't know, is it possible you could tell them?
Have you tried talking to your mom about this? Maybe you can try planning some activities to do together while your stepdad is home so that you still get attention. She probably doesn't even realize you feel like she is ignoring you.
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