He really did notice me. now what?

[OMH]

i apologize ahead of time, this question has a lengthy story to it.
so, for about the last 5 years, I had the hugest crush on this one guy. we were friends in the "we are next to each other in class so lets talk every day" sense, and eventually became real friends. i never told anyone how i felt, because i'm not the kind of person that shares my true feelings. about a year into me liking him, i was tempted to tell him how i felt. then one of my closest friends told me that they started dating. (i cried myself to sleep that night, because i knew that i would never date a friends ex)
they broke up after 2 1/2 years, and he started dating someone else. this whole time, we remained good friends, and hung out during theater, choir, and any classes we had together.
now we go to different colleges, and i basically accepted that i will never see anyone from high school again. and forced myself to get over my feelings for him.
not too long ago, he contacted me and told me how his girlfriend had broken up with him a while ago, and he realized that thinking of me made him feel a lot better, and that he always had had some feeling for me, even while dating my friend. and he said that if i wanted to, we should try being more than friends.
figuring that i no longer talk to his ex/my friend anymore, i said okay. we went on our first date a little while ago. and it was great.
but something about the thought of me being in a relationship, in general, let alone with my high school crush, freaks me out. i couldn't make myself enjoy it as much as i wanted/thought i should/hoped i would
i have never felt that a guy liked me before, or could ever like me, so i had accepted that i will be alone forever (i know kind of childish)
so i guess my question is, am i supposed to be feeling so confused about this situation? are feelings like this typical in first relationships? do i continue dating him and hope i can feel more natural? or is that unfair to him, and break it off? should i tell him? and if so, how do i tell him without sounding immature?

i know this is a lot, but thank you for reading

[Chris.]

Yes, you will feel confused at times in a relationship - I wouldn't break it off. The problem here is it seems you are thinking way to far into this - you are with a guy you like, and he likes you - and your high school friends aren't your friends anymore. Simple. Done. Don't think about the past - or what ifs, or anything like that. The more you think about this - the more you will become negative and the more you risk in the relationship. I would personally just be happy you have him in your life. But yes, these feelings are normal - you thought so much about what it would be like dating him, and you were living in a non-reality setting so when you actually started dating him your expectations go crushed and you felt confused and you didnt realize what an acutal relationship would feel like. Its normal.




Best wishes,
Chris