What a pickle I'm in. . .

[aday2rememberx3]

Alright. Where do I begin. . .
So, I have this friend who I'm not really that good of friends with; she has a boyfriend that I've known pretty much as long as I've known her, because we all met through work (except she no longer works with us). Before I knew they were going out (because it was and still is being kept a secret) I tried to pursue. . ."Brad", I thought he was cute and funny so I gave him my number and so on and so forth. Later the same week I was talking to. . ."Niki" and she told me they were going out. While I was super disappointed I backed off because I like them both and they deserve to be happy. At points between then and now I've still felt an attraction to him, however, I've never made my feelings known to anyone. Now it's three to four months into their relationship and she's told me multiple times that she wants to break up with him and that it depends on her mood of whether she likes him or not and she gets super jealous of other girls talking to him. Here's the thing, me and "Niki" recently had spent sometime together and she told me all these secrets about "Brad" that only a handful of people know. These secrets that she told me sparked my interest in him ever more and made me want to have a deeper relationship than just being "work friends". "Niki" also wants me to become better friends with him so that he'll have another support system besides herself, someone he can trust. She also wants a mutual friend between them and I feel as if she was trying to say that I'm the only girl she trusts Brad with; (whether its because she thinks I'm not a threat or because she values me as a friend I have yet to determine) Brad has also been very friendly the past couple of weeks and making me an airplane with a note inside and giving me a hug every time I leave, offering me his food at break time when I forgot to bring money, pulling on my apron strings when he walks buy and stealing my pens, etc. Now, I want them to break up for selfish reasons in hopes that I might have a chance with him (although me and niki are very different) but I want them to stay together because I want them to be happy. I want to be better friends with brad outside of work but I don't know if I could do that with out falling for him even more; plus I wouldn't even know where to begin to try to start a deeper relationship with him or how to hangout with him one on one. I'm just very confused and I'm worrying myself sick because I don't know what to do, feel, or anything. I just want everyone to be happy, but I don't want to have to sacrifice my own feelings in the process. . .I care for this boy whether he knows it or not and he's such a good person I'd hate to make the wrong move and mess up everything.
Any advice? :/

[Aletheia*]

If you feel you can't have a decent relationship with him outside of work, on a more deeper level, without falling for him more, I would keep it purely as a work friendship until the time comes when "Niki" wants to end things with him. Wanting them to break up just so you could try to be with him is a very selfish reason, though I think we've all been there before. However, until he's single, you shouldn't pursue a relationship with him just yet. He deserves to try to be happy, no matter who his girlfriend is. If she isn't right for him, he'll learn soon enough that she isn't, but we have to allow him to figure that out on his own. Sure, it might be devastating, but if you try to tell him things about "Niki", he may not believe you or end up resenting you for trying to come between his relationship with her. Until he's single, just try to maintain your friendship with both of them inside a work setting.