Triggering (Suicide): Is she cheating on me? Leaving me? Help me. Please.

[Vevit]

What the hell is a rainbow dash halfway? The only rainbow dash I know of Is that pony whos supposed to represent loyalty. Calling herself "rainbowdash halfway" does it mean she wasnt faithfull? She left a message saying "dont blame myself" and that dont hurt myself over her becouse shes not worth it. Godamnit, shes leaving me isnt she? Hasnt answered any of my messages. Says shes going through some shit right now. Im trying to hold back my tears In class and its not working so well. I know how suicide works, a quick decision, a bad choice. Of course I dont want to kill myself but the depression is so bad. Havent been on my medication and I cant stop these thoughts. I need advice, pity, understanding anything to get my mind away from such things. What I need most is the reason im feeling this way.

[Koharuchan]

It doesn't neccesarily mean she's leving you. She said "don't blame yourself because I'm not worth it," and that she's going through shit right now. Maybe something happened to her recently that has her feeling bad about herself, maybe a fight with a friend or family member. Don't jump to the conclusion that she wants to leave you, because it will only stress you out. Try talking to her and telling her your feelings, because communication is key. If she says she doesn't want to talk about it, then don't push her. Give her some space.

[Nicole!]

She may not be leaving you.
You should probably get back on your medication to help your depression.
She may just be going through a period of depression as well and is apologizing for every small thing she may have done. Doesn't mean she's leaving you. Doesn't mean she's cheated on you. I think the best thing you can do is just give her some time and give her some space and in time she will talk to you again and maybe give you an explanation. Just stay strong and don't think of the worst possible situation- stay positive.

[Smitten]

The reason you are feeling the way you are is Not Knowing Humans hate to not know - it's the uncertainty of the situation. She said something that can be interpreted in several different ways and you do not know how to take it and she is leaving you to your own devices to figure it out which is impossible.