there i go hating myself again...

[katie4evrr1]

hello i guess i should say. but that sounds more like what a happy person would say and happy doesnt even begin to describe me. He dumped me today. my soon to be 2 month boyfriend that i was falling in love with. He dumped me because he couldn't remain abstinant with me. I only have 2 conditions when dating me...
*no sex
*no betrayal
I don't want to end up pregnant or with an STD when i am only a freshman in highschool. But he pulled me aside and told me that he couldnt see us lasting past 2 months. Yet he was all over me yesterday... i dont get it. he is the first guy i have ever felt this close with and he just broke it.
now im judging everything about myself. Maybe guys only want a girl that puts out. Maybe im only a tease. Maybe im not pretty enough. maybe there is something wrong with me that even i cant detect. how can one guy do this shit to me? i shouldn't be this badly affected right? I mean it was only 2 months but still it felt so right with him.
He is a bad guy i know... deals drugs, does drugs, apparently sex is a neccessity, and can sometimes be an ass. I don't know he was never bad to me and i pray to god he didnt cheat on me. And now i realize i am rambling but i just feel i need this off my chest.
I don't open up easily to guys but he made it so much easier. Is there something wrong with me?

[PSY]

There's nothing wrong with you. Honey, stick to your values, no matter how much you love someone. If you change your mind about something, do it because you feel differently about an issue, not because you want to please someone else.

It's not hopeless. I had a boyfriend when I was your age (15). I told him I didn't want to have sex, and he agreed to my terms. He didn't really believe me at first - and he was definitely upset when reality smacked him in the face - but after a heart-to-heart, he accepted my decision, and we dated for quite some time. When our relationship ended, it was because I wanted it to end, and not because he dumped me for refusing to "put out."

[Aletheia*]

If he can't respect your values and morals, he can't respect you. That's what it really comes down too. Don't change them to please someone. Change them because YOU feel that's the right thing to do. There is nothing wrong with you. He just can't respect the fact that you'd rather wait until YOU'RE ready to take such a big step.

[Nicole!]

I agree with PSY. Stick to your values, if he can't respect them then he doesn't deserve you. You're still young and have plenty of time to do things such as sex. The fact that he deals drugs tells me that you two were living in two different worlds too, which could have been part of why he broke up with you. Regardless, breaking up with you just because you wouldn't have sex with him is a terrible reason. He should enjoy just spending time with you, and be willing to give you respect and wait until you were ready.

Breakups will hurt no matter how long you have been together. But remember that with every breakup, you are one relationship closer to finding the perfect guy.