Confused and Love F***ing sucks

[DivingCheska]

I posted this in the LGBT section but didn't get any help and realized it might do better in here. I'm really sorry if I shouldn't post it again I just need help!

I am in love with my old foster sister and have been for awhile even though we have a on again off again relationship. She said that she was bi and when she was living with us she did sexual things to me three times with out me saying yes but the third time it was like I wasn't me and I wasn't in my head and I let it happen and did things to her. Anyways for the next couple of months it was like I wasn't me and we screwed around. She told me that she liked me more than a friend and if she wasn't in a relationship she would date me and I told her I liked her more than a friend too. Anyways after she got kicked out of my house we stopped talking for a while because I had to figure out what happened between us but I still haven't. Anyways when I did start talking to her again she said she was sorry about the sexual thing she did to me and if she knew i never did anything with anyone before she never would have done it. Because she was basically my first kiss besides a very quick gross one with a guy. Anyways she always comes to me for help when she is depressed or wants to kill herself and she comes to me when her and her boyfriend break up and they do that a lot. Anyways this time when she did I was saying everything I could to help her and I felt so bad for her because I fucking love her. Anyways I told her i'd do anything for her and that i like her more than a friend and she said she knows and she is grateful for me. Even though she says that she is straight and when we screwed around she was just horny and basically would do anyone but she isn't into girls. I really thought I might have a chance this time when she broke up with her bf but just found out yesterday they got back together it just hurts so much. I don't know why I had to fall in love with her and why I want her so damn bad. She said she would help me find a girlfriend but I want her to want me!!!!

HELP ME

[Chris.]

See, often we like those who simply don't have feelings for us back.

In this case, she has made it very clear that she doesn't want to be with you - but still wants to be friends. She cherishes your friendship, and she does love you, but no more than a friend.

You really have a few options here:

-Move on and try to find someone else.

-Don't move on, and be in pain.

Moving on isn't simple... But I think its best. Why continue to love someone, who doesn't love you back? It seems that she has moved on and figured out what she really wants - so why stick around and waste your time on someone that you cant be with?

I know this sounds harsh - but reality sucks, and so does love. You know deep down that you have to move on eventually - so its probably best to start now.



Best wishes,
Chris