I don't know if I blew it with him...

[waiting.in.the.wings]

So there's this guy...

His name is Mike. I've known Mike since Kindergarten, and I teased him all through elementary school. Not mean teasing...I was just an obnoxious little kid who had a crush on the shy kid. We're both high school freshman and now we joke about it. I know I didn't tease him that bad because we were friends all the way through middle school.

I've had a crush on him for almost as long as I can remember. He's got these really pretty, deep blue eyes that just send chills down your spine. He's nice and funny and, most importantly, a great guy. He and I had a SO at the same time and broke up with them around the same time. (Mine started abusing drugs and his cheated). We stopped talking a lot during the time we had SOs, but recently we started talking again. We had HUSH class together first semester, and we would always talk and he would always touch my hair.

Second semester, we got seperated, but I still saw him in the halls and such. I still liked him, and trust me, he was worth the wait.

Anyways, last night was winter dance. I didn't want to go, but my friends dragged me. I went almost the whole night without dancing with anyone (which is fine with me--I was NOT in the mood). My ex was there (higher than a kite, might I add), and he was trying to get close to me the whole time. I was paranoid the whole dance and I had little to no fun the entire time. Until I saw Mike. I was talking to my friend Kristin about who we wanted to dance with, if we could choose, and I slipped up and said "Mike!". No one knew that I liked him, so it came as a suprise to her. (We were all a group of friends during middle school.) We started dancing again, and Mike walked past. Kristin and I started talking to him and his friend, and when a faster song came on, we pulled them on the dance floor. Kristin yelled, "Mike! Dance with Victoria!" and he smiled at me and kind of awkwardly said "Okay!" and we danced for a whole song. And when I say "danced" I mean grinded. I thought it would be awkward, but it really wasn't for me! I was in total bliss!!!
Then, he turned me around and we were holding hands and just kind of moving our hips, talking about school. He said he missed seeing me everyday and I said I missed him touching my hair.

Then...disaster.

I saw my ex, Evan, stumbling towards us, his eyes locked on me. Panic took over. I yelled, "Mike, please hide me and dance with me, just for a second!!" and he yelled "Why?" and I said "Um, Evan.." and he said "Oh, okay!" so we danced until Evan left. Then leaned over and said in my ear, real quiet, "I'll be right back."

But the thing is...he never came back.

Did I blow it? I never should have danced with him.

Oh no...he probably thinks I was just using him to hide from Evan. Ugh

[niente_]

I wouldn't say you blew it ... maybe he intended on coming back and got distracted. Perhaps you're right though ... maybe he thought you were using him to hide from your ex ... see him as soon as you can and ask what happened to him, and say sorry if you gave him the impression that you were using him, but you really weren't, it was just unfortunate timing. Say that what you said was true about missing him etc ... and see how it goes from there.

[Singer180]

Only one way to find out right? By the way you describe him, he seems very level headed so if you just talk to him about it I'm sure he'd understand! Who knows? Maybe you guys could even talk of your future relationship together. Either way, the only way you'll know how he really feels to talk to him and I think it'd be worth it to you. I hope everything works out!