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Name: Eliza
Age: 19
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Exclamation Seeing my abuser in court tomorrow (+my never ending life story) - September 19th 2017, 12:19 AM

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I was born to a 16 year old girl who's identity is unknown. Eventually I was abandoned and put up for adoption. The couple who adopted me was a nice, middle aged couple, but the dad was a little, off (you know that feeling?) When I was 10 my then mother started getting in fights with my then father. He was coming home drunk in the middle of the night and sexually abusing her. She broke up with him and gave him a restraining order. When I was 12 he started caning and belting me. A lot of my friends were getting belted at the time so I didn't think much of it. The next year, he came home very drunk and raped me for the first time. I talked to my guidance counselor at school later and she said she couldn't handle the issue and she would call the police for me. I said I'd do it myself sometime, but ended up being too shy and embarrassed to do it. I was also worried about what my dad might say if he found out. I loved him when he had his wits about him, and we still talked some of the time. (I was, and still am, way too forgiving) In October of 2016, he raped me a second time, and all my love for him disappeared. I called the police at school the very next day, and they escorted me to the hospital for a rape kit.

The results were positive for rape.

I was taken out of his custody and went to a treatment center in Utah. After that I went to another treatment center, and last month I graduated from that program. I'm currently staying with my non-biological mother's sister, and I was informed that we're going to court tomorrow to a) press charges and b) find out who gets custody over me.

I'm just overall nervous. I don't know what to do. I just want to end this. I can't go on like this.