[floatingangel]

hey hun, it must be pretty scary going through all this...
firstly, cutting is an addiction and yes i know how it's like to have your mind constantly absorbed by the thoughts of it. the cuts will just get deeper and deeper like you have found out it would, and it's simply not the way to handle the feelings you're going through. is there anyone you can talk to? especially to a professional counsellor? your feelings of insecurity and numbness will not go away by itself..

maybe you feel like cutting is your only way to feel right, the only way for you to feel alive as you say, but it's just going to make you feel more alone and push away people who truly care for you...

maybe you can try the alternatives listed on the forum? or post whenever you have the urge to cut. you can beat this!

take care (: