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Thumbs down Just when i think things are getting better they get worse.. - September 8th 2009, 04:13 AM

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So i throw up a lil no big deal..i stopped then started again and its not like i throw up everything i eat.well i had stopped again was doing good for over a week.i did it for my boyfriend who doesnt know.For six months hes been telling me im beautiful even tho il never see it so i tried to stop for him the one postive thought i had going in my head...fri nite he broke up with me for no reason and ive been pukin everyday since then.Because know i now im just not good enough.Thats what my head keeps telling me il never be good enough.My friends leave me and now my boyfriend has to..i dont know how else to make myself feel better.Its always been my way to cope with stress.just more recently this past year has it been more intentional but honestly i dont think its bad enough to be considered an ed..idk..

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.
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