[RollingThunder]

Weeeell now.. here we are. Back in the familiar confines of this box. Blurting my inner thoughts to an unknown public. Regardless of this fact, it has assisted me in past times. So why not now? I'm afraid when I rant I leave little to structure and grammar. It may be rough to read..short or long..who knows. I'm just gunna go off..and we'll see where it goes eh?

Shelby, how can I explain? Started bout four years ago. Hugest crush ever on her, nothing happened though. Through highschool became REALLY close. Always assumed that we were always going to be just friends..that changed!

This will be divided into two parts..the WEE! part and the ERM.. part
WEE! = GOOD!
ERM.. = BAD!

WEE!
Found out a few days ago she considers me possably to be more than a friend. She is single now and I was F*CKIN PSYCHED! So we have been hanging out and it's TOTALLY awesome cuz she really seems to enjoy my company!

ERM..
Alas I am not sure if it is like..official. She usually dances about a few boys before choosing one for a committed relationship. Right now I am not sure if I am the only one she considers. I don't wanna set my hopes too high on supports like that..bad tumble if it turns out false, eh?

WEE!
Hung out yesterday, slept over into today with two others! AMAZING OMG SUPER AWESOME YAHOO! We cuddled the WHOLE night and into morning. Shelby and I talked and cuddled and talked while cuddling and talked and it was AMAZING! I explaimed my feelings for her and she told me she dreamed of me and how she thinks it could work! I FEEL LIKE I COULD KISS PEOPLE! ALL PEOPLE!

ERM..
She wants to get to know me more..she says. That's all well and good..I'm willing to go at whatever pace makes her comfortable, dig? However I have this evil little birdie telling me she has other people..and she is still choosing. CURSE YOU EVIL CONSCIENCE BIRDIE!

WEE!
Just..the feeling know? That leap of joy you get when you look into that other's eyes and know you really care. That she is the one for you right now? That pure bliss? I felt it..I loved it..I need more of it. It's so amazing!

ERM..
She told me she was not a virgin. I sorta thought that but it still wierds me out. No matter how many times I say it's no big deal..I still feel kinda odd about that. Just found out today. Ah well..won't effect my love for her. Just..kinda odd, follow me?



So that's bout it here. Shelby..liked her for EVER and now have a chance. Held her for hours today and experienced bliss that of which I haven't felt for ages. Just..amazing stuff, know? I can't say that I love her yet..that would be too bold. But I sure as hell like her more than a friend definately. I think there is hope here folks! I really do! I gotta go prance about the house in pure bliss now..stay chill ya'll!

-Ryan