[fullofsecrets]

You need to talk to your friends or someone you trust, like a counselor at school about them. When you say "hooking up" with different guys, I don't know if you mean sexually, and I hope not, because if you're not careful and don't use a condom that can increase the risk of an STD and really ruin your chance of having a real relationship. Real relationships come with age and maturity, and you need to wait patiently for them. I have the same insecurity problems as you and I am in a real, committed relationship, but I still feel nervous that he's going to cheat on me. He's the only boyfriend I've ever had and I don't have friends or family so he literally means the world to me. Maybe it would help if you ran to your friends and tried to do something to keep your mind off of it instead of running to a guy. I hope that helped.