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Re: I wrote- it hurts, it burns- Is it beauty? - January 22nd 2010, 05:42 PM

the way that i get through my thoughts is through finding the shreds of hope... sometimes they are few and far between... sometimes there is nothing i can do but distract myself... analize the things that used to make me happy, find where the magic was and do them... sometimes i feel separated from my body now like my conciousness is limited to inside my head and i am not looking at the world for what it is... but then i close my eyes and envision a tree or a word... sometimes i get in the bathtub close my eyes and just feel the heat... ... then when i open my eyes im back in the present again... and i can focus in what im doing clearly for a time... like i can see my body again... its hard to explain, but maybe this can help you because i struggle with so much worry... of a failed life, of emptiness despite my effort, loneliness... and i really could identify with your poem... hope i could help

Like a diet of the mind, I just choose not to indulge certain appetites; like my appetite for patterns; perhaps my appetite to imagine and to dream. - A Beautiful Mind

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