AARRRHHH SHUT UP!!
JUST SHUT UP STOP THE FUCKING ARGUING!
I CAN HEAR THE MURMER OF UR RAISE VOICES FROM UPSTAIR YOU TWATS!
Y DO U HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS! JUST SHUT UP!!!!
God sorry, *angry*
much?
Anyway, I've just got back from the doctors.
I chickened out of telling him how much im thinking about suicide,and how much its
always on my mind.
I've got same pills higher dose
woop
He didnt ask me about how much I've been SHing, good. non of his business
I asked about seeing the councellor again, she was ok, but i might not be able to see her becasue ive seen her before, how odd.
and the doctor has told me that
'i have got to ring Healthy Minds about my CBT' i told him i dont like it, i dont want to go.
and he said if i dont call this week then im off there list.
boo hoo what a loss.
i might ring just to be poliet.
but my doctor really want me to try this.
he says that when i get better (i always think if, and its really unlikey) that CBT will help me to recover faster in the future, pff.
what future.
i dont want a future do i
i have had enough.
im going out, to get drunk.
to forget, and when i get back i know what will happen.
i know the mess i'll make, cutting while drunk isnt the easest way to clean up.
i might just not bother.
Also im still freaking out about asking my mum to read that sodding book!
why did i ask!!
she'll get half way through, and then when 'Emily' cuts herself with the blade she'll think, 'oh aye, my freaky daughter is still doing that 'daft' thing, stupid girl'!!!!!
gezz this is a really negative post, sorry.
but thats what u get when iv got no one else to talk to...