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People on this site are too nice to me.
I spoke to my mum this morning, having a bit of a heart to heart.
i didnt realise how much i manged to upset her.
when i flip out and just see red, if u know what i mean.
when i get so angry and im so close to hitting her, but i never would do that.
i told her that i dont mean to, i mean shes the person i love the most, so i dont do it on purpose.
but i feel so horriable now.

then i mentioned thee book.
and i tried to say that its about a girl
and then my mum said, shes reading it.
and is it about a girl who feels sort of how i do
and does what i do?
and i said sort of yeh, and then i said that i need her to have at least a small understanding.
becasue 'it' isnt what she thinks, its not stupid.
not to me.