Hey Ella,
That's a really hard question. I wish I could say no, because ultimately what happened to me has made me stronger, but I can't. If I could change what happened, I would, without hesitating. It may had made me stronger, but the nightmares, flashbacks, and general freaking out around guys, it's not worth it.
It is good to hear that you are talking to a counselor though, that takes a lot of strength.
If you need anything, feel free to
pm me.