[*Jen*]

It is good you opened up to your mum because that can't have been easy at all. A self esteem course would definitely be a good idea. Perhaps you could go back to your doctor and ask about it and whether there is one you could join. Anti-depressants are for depression not confidence so they wouldn't help with that. I think you need to join some kind of course or perhaps see a counsellor who could explore things with you.