[DreamingTonight]

I go to a catholic school and my grades have been terrible for this year. Constant F's. Im fixing myself up and trying to do better for as a last chance in our trimester now. Im trying hard and i feel like im doing good. But one thing...I got a detention. Last week, I had a guardian teacher meeting for an artistic nude picture that was found in the trash by a supposed not snooping science teacher. I was suspended for a day. I am not a girl who gets out of line or even lifts her head to an adult,only when spoken to. I keep my head down,stay quiet,and do my work. Trouble seems to find me though...And its making me insane. Friday, I threw a bag of carrots to my friend (we eat in our homerooms) and hit the lunch monitor mom by accident. She told my homeroom teacher now she gave me a referal for causing a food fight...i was the only one trying to pass my food on. I shook it off since it was no big deal. This teacher also wants to talk to my guardian about hygiene...which has been going on for a few months and they just never met. I am well kept and HAVE NO IDEA what thats about but im scared. Im very worried about all this. Its just stressing me out. I feel like she hates me. My relationship with my other teachers is getting better since they see im trying i think,but she HATES me. She says my name with digust sometimes...I hate being picked on and just want to be appreciated. Im shy with teachers,but the most funny,outgoing girl with my friends. So Today,Monday, I forgot to get the referal signed and now have a detention...i mean i forgot over the WEEKEND. I spent a day at my friends house after school friday and saturday was my boyfriend and I's alone time and movie time. Sunday we just slept all day. No idea why haha. But I just wasnt even thinking about it. Im scared of showing my guardians the detention thing...but I NEVER act out. Im quiet and respectful. Not only do i need a replacement phone since my phones fried,but i need tickets that ive told them about for a year before April 1st. What can i do to calm myself down and why am I soooo fearful and worried? Please help a stressful teen out.