i haven't been doing the whole bingeing and throwing up thing for about a year. A YEAR. i used to be doing it like 8 times a day (for more than 2 yrs) and after counselling and all that shit, worrying that i'm gonna bust my heart.... i stopped..
then today.. i did it again. i binged and threw up 3 times... and i don't even know why. i think i was just thinking too much of food and stuffed some food down myself. then i felt so sick, so disgusted, that i had to go and throw it all up. then i couldn't stop myself... i did that again and again... and after that i was feeling so so drained, like all the energy was sucked out of me...
i'm scared it's coming back... i dunno maybe i'm just overreacting... but i'm really scared that this is a sign that i can't control my thoughts again.. i'm breaking down again..
wat should i do?
