Hey, and welcome.
You do know your reasons for cutting, since you basically acknowledged them...
I just love the pain and seeing the marks that are left on my arm, it makes me feel powerful and a lot better about myself in a weird way.
So knowing that will help you figure out how to stop.
You may want to check out the Alternatives to Self-Harm
, and maybe you can find some things that work for you.
Cutting CAN become addictive, so better to nip it while its a new thing.