Am I looking to far into things? -
February 3rd 2009, 09:29 PM
Background: Early last month I tried to kill myself and luckily my boyfriend saved my life. He was very supportive and said that he would never let what happened affect how he feels about me.
Current: My boyfriend and I have been fighting a bit lately because of family related issues and just general grumpiness (normally these fights happen late at night). Sometimes during the fights he would bring up the fact that I tried to kill myself and he had to run in and be the rescuer. Well, today has been the first day in about a week that we haven't fought at all. And it's been amazing to not be fighting and to finally just be us again without any of the mean words or stupid thoughts going on. Yet, I feel like since we started fighting his feelings for me have changed or maybe they've changed since I tried to kill myself. I feel like we're not even close to being on the same page and that he feels less for me now than before. Maybe it's just us recovering from all of the fighting and giving ourselves a little bit of room to heal. Yet, I can't help wondering if the incident back in January was too much for him and that he can never see me the same again.
Am I just reading way too much into the situation? Or should I legitimately be worried?