[bitesize]

Ugh, maybe I'll just take it.... I just really feel so pointless about it. He knows that if there was anything really to worry about I would be worrying ~ getting pregnant is just not an option for me, especially with having to go abroad to get an abortion because our country is so old-fashioned ~ and I've talked to him about this so much that logically I think he knows everything really is ok. I just really don't feel happy about taking it. And yes, I can't really explain why I don't want to, and yes that makes me feel horribly selfish.
And yes I know that there's no way of knowing 100% that I'm not pregnant without a test. But I've had sex over a hundred times without a condom and this has never happened, so why should it happen on this one time ~ especially at a time of the month that I'm not particularly fertile??

I think I'm just grouchy because honestly, if this was a post someone else had written and I was replying from someone else's point of view, I would be thinking 'what's the big deal?? Just take a test!!' and tell them that too. But it's different when it's yourself.