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When i was younger i was physicly abused/bullied by my older cousin who was three years older then I. I learned to put up with that kind of behavior tord me and didn't think that maybe I shouldnt have been putting up with it for no reason. Basicly for a long time I thought it was normal to take everyones stress and anger. Now I'm over that, and I've learned to stand up for myself. What I do deserve. That it is not may fault that others have anger. But whenever I see anger or annoyence, it scares me crudless. I freeze and panic a bit. I have no idea if its directed at me or if its totally unrelated to the conversation. Pretty much what I'm saying is that whenever someone gets angry I get freaked out and am fearfull of everyone. Because I'm afraid I'm going to get close to someone and they are going to end up hitting me or yelling at me. I know that I have to take risks and get over it. Because if I haul the fear around its going to prevent me from finding what could really be a good relationship.

I'm not really sure what I'm asking. I guess its how to get a grip on the fear and not be so afraid. Because its any anger that frightens me. Even when not pointed to me. I have a councler but hes been out of town for a while and i'd just like to have some feed back.