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Re: Don't want to stop binging and purging - October 17th 2010, 10:58 PM

I dont have bulimia, I am in recovery for anorexia, but still very much anorexic. I am eating again, and I have been for a wee while now, I am actually eating a pretty decent amount, but for a normal person it would be more like quite a strict diet. Now really I know I need to eat a lot, to actually gain weight, but to be honest, at the moment I feel so good, I eat what I want (in moderation) and I just dont eat too much junk food, and its not like I care what I eat...but I am aware. I haven't gained weight but I am so happy, I feel energetic, I can eat out with friends, I dont think anxiously about food all the time any more and just in general my life has improved DRASTICALLY!
The thing is, is I want to keep it this way. I see myself as slim, now ive been told I look sick, but I think I look alright. I dont want to gain weight and all that, But it is dangerous, and I have to gain weight. As much as I want to stay so thin, I have to stop this. And you also have to as well. You can be slim, with exercise and healthy eating. But bulimia is just not safe, and its effective at all. You may not want to stop - just like I dont want to gain weight, but in the end you will be so thankful for it!