What you want to do with your life, in the future, is you decision. You can make the most of it or you can sit back and watch it pass you by. You can do many things. I know feeling like this, most days, but be very difficult to live with. It isn't impossible. It's never impossible. It's never too late to turn things around and live for the better. Live to become better. Live to see it through to the end. Live for the friends you still do have. You know what it's like to lose someone. I don't think you'd want to be the reason for your friends to feel the same. Every single person you talk to or meet is going to be affected by you. Whether it be big or small. Each new day can be the beginning of the rest of your life. Every new day can be a new chance to turn something around. You're not far gone enough to be helped. To feel better. It just takes dedication. Don't doubt what you know and don't throw away your dreams because you think you're not good enough. This isn't true. With hard work, anything can happen. I'm a big believer in that. It's never wrong to ask for help either. When things get tough and the only thing you're relying on is self harm, maybe it's time to get someone to lean on. Maybe it's time to talk to a doctor, parent or friend. Someone that can help you along with your struggles. If you ever need anything, I'm a PM
~Stay strong and have faith.