[samtation]

Well, my dad died October 25 2009, when I was 14 and anyone that has had a parent die when they're 1 know that shit SUCKS. I have always been one to bottle up my emotions and I vowed that after my dad died I would never cry again. I cried while looking at his limp body on the hospice house bed but I didn't cry at the funeral. I haven't cried since. Like I said, I bottle up my emotions, and I am starting to think it is fairly unhealthy. I have been extremely irritable and stressed, and I have been wanting to fight, even though I have never fought anyone before. Because of my constant stress and anger I have been smoking pot every now and again and that seems to help. I have also been using excessive drinking to help me relax. I was wondering if anyone that is or was in a similar situation could help me find a safer way to feel more relaxed or a better way to release stress?