[xxpaigiexx]

Hey Coco,
I'm glad you think it's time for a new relationship, but only if you're really ready for one. It's difficult getting out of the cycle of being in abusive relationships if that is all you're used to.
So make sure the next relationship you're getting into you take it slowly and at your pace. You need to feel comfortable, and it will take a long time for you to trust someone. You're really going to have to be patient with yourself.
I'm sorry to hear about your ex boyfriend, and I can understand that his suicide would put you off dating for a long time, and it may also make you make the wrong choices with guys, because you're young and this has probably made you pretty vulnerable.
I know he'd want you to be happy with someone and to find someone who treats you right, because you deserve nothing more than to be treated right by someone, and to have someone who makes you happy and makes you smile.
Just remember this may be a longer process than you think, especially trusting someone.
So take it in small steps and don't let anyone pressurise you into anything, because you deserve the best and anyone who cares about you will be patient with you and will not push you into a relationship or anything else,
I'm always here if you need to talk!
Paige
xox