[Up In The Clouds]

Last night I tried to do my summer homework with my dad supervising, and I started freaking out like I regularly do when I have to do my homework, fidgeting and getting distracted and flustered. They wanted me to finish the whole paper so I just started writing down whatever when he left.

I could hear them talking about how much of a failure I am and what they’re going to do with me. They’re kind of mad at me ‘cause I failed a class last year and they wanted me to do a sport so I ran for two days then gave up. I don’t go out with my friends. I pretty much sit in my room and sleep. I’ve tried to stop punching myself and I’ve only slipped up a few times, but I’ve been having screaming outbursts when I would usually be hitting myself. My mom gets all pissed at me for that and tells me what a brat I am and how my life is so perfect and I shouldn’t be upset.
They’ve been bothering me to get an extracurricular activity so I can get into college. My sister says I’ll need at least three clubs. She says orchestra doesn’t count. The only thing I’m good at is orchestra though. I don’t know how I’ll get all my homework done though because I can’t do it already. I know they’re going to pressure me to go to football games and dances and go out with friends.
Sorry for ranting so much, lol. I need advice.