Originally Posted by Kristen1995
Yes, they were angry but serious. I'm sure that they were telling the truth.
How can you be so sure? Is what you say in anger always "true", or something you ended up to regret saying?
If your home life is that negative, just get out for most of the day. You said you have no friends. It doesn't mean hanging out. Just find somewhere to go and to get away from all the negativity. I never really had friends. For the first time in my life, I have only just made friends that I actively hang out with.
Obviously, I know that escaping the situation doesn't solve it. You're still going to have to deal with them, and that's reality. It's going to be hard. One day though, you will escape them. If they hate you as much as you say, then you know what you should do? You should direct all your negative emotions to spite them. Live. Thrive. Show them just how wrong they are by being better human beings than they ever were. And if, as an adult, you still have all these negative feelings (which you won't) then you can tell them you never wanted them when they ask for help as frail, old people.
I don't presume to know you. I know there's nothing I can do to make these negative feelings in you to go away. That's why you should focus them in a positive way. If you're as worthless as you say, then your time must be worthless as well right? Start putting that time towards volunteering, towards helping people. And your feelings will start to change. You will feel good for helping people. You will start making friends, in a safe way, far removed from school and the home, with a clean slate too. You will begin to have a sense of worth.