Originally Posted by TheCrowing
I know it's not right for them to say any of that.. But really now, take a step back from the situation. Don't look at it the same way as you normally do. Step out of this "reason to live?" mindset and take on a new one, even if for 30 seconds. Completely step out of it. Look at the situation now. Look at how you feel, how they feel, do you even know how they feel, without the obvious issue already stated? Now step out and think about all of the good things that have happened, even the smallest. Is it really worth it to feel this way? By denying happiness, you're just making it harder on yourself. Take that step out, and let yourself be happy in a nonharmful way, even if just for an hour. Maybe you'll see the point I'm trying to make then.
So you want to know about the context? Here it is: my parents were tired of me because I was always a downer. They pretty much felt ashamed of me since I was a black sheep in my family. I couldn't be a straight A student. I was always depressed, which pulled everyone down. I had one suicide attempt and was addicted to self mutilation. They are christian and saw suicide as a sin. They constantly nagged me about that, which drove me crazy. On the day they told me about the abortion, they were nagging me once again. I was pissed off and yelled at them, "Leave me alone!" Then they scolded me for being selfish and burdening them. Later, I knew about the abortion.