Omg I so sorry for what you have been throught. You have to tell someone about the guy who did those horrible things to you. Tell anyone u trust, ik it's scary. I'm not best person for advise of be abused but u have to tell someone or else it won't stop. I'm here if you ever need anyone to talk to. I'll do my absolute best to help.
All the people who said mean things to you are wrong. I put my self down a lot and think some of same things. I bet if those people go to know u they would find out ur a really nice girl. You are not ugly or a loser, Ur pretty and awesome
If you ever need someone to talk to PM
me. I'll do my best to help