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Name: Becca
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Is it worth fighting still? - October 6th 2012, 10:51 PM

I've been struggling so badly lately and I want to get better and recover SO SO SO SO SO BADLY. I want it.

And I feel lazy or weak saying this but it's just SO FUCKING DIFFICULT right now. I slipped up really badly two days ago and just mauled my right hip. I'm really confused with a lot right now, I've been drinking a lot and sleeping around a lot and I feel so incredibly lonely. I want to keep cutting, but I don't because I want more than that from life, but every time I try to pursue that, it never works out.

And I have the whole list of alternatives and whatnot, it's not that. THAT isn't the issue. I know every "distraction/prevention" trick in the book.

I just really, really, really, PLEASE need someone to tell me that it's worth fighting because I have no idea what the fuck lays on the other side anymore and I'm terrified. Help.


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