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Last Activity: January 9th 2014 01:06 PM
About Me
- Basics
- Name
- Macs
- Gender
- Female
- Location
- Australia
- About
- About me
- My name's Macs, nickname I'm sure you can tell. I'm almost 18, graduated from high school 2 months a go an just finished my final school exams a month ago.
I joined this site both to help others, I am known for giving advice, but also to talk to people outside my own social circle. I have had a challenging past year. Completing your final year at high school is hard enough, but I had other issues that impacted heavily throughout. Over the pst year I have lost strength in several of my closest friendships, leaving me unable to have very close friends to confide in. This, however is very minor to my main challenge.
My little brother has always had quite bad anxiety, however this year began to suffer very badly from not only the anxiety, but depression as well. He developed an eating disorder and began to self-harm on both his arms and legs. I found this very difficult to cope with, in amongst the difficulty of it being my last year at high school.
I did not feel that I could talk to my parents about this, as he is the one that has the problems, and I just couldn't confide in my friends. I have always been a person who likes to take something away and think on my own before sharing. I like to deal on my own, that way people don't see my vulnerabilities.
Anyway, I was in the middle of my trial HSC exams in August when something happened. I came home from an exam to be told by my dad that my brother hadn't indeed been to the doctor that morning as he told me, but that he was actually in hospital.
He had taken an overdose of prescription medication in an attempt to take his own life.
This was two and a half months before my final exams were to begin. I returned to school after not sitting half my trial exams, having to tell all my friends what had gone on. After that though, it was like they thought he would be magically better.
I saw my school counsellor a couple times before I finished school, but I didn't deal with a lot of the emotions that came with what had happened.
Now, I still feel so many mixed emotions about everything. There are times when all I do is cry, when I want to punch a wall so badly, when I am beyond frustration, when I feel completely alone. I haven't really dealt with anything, and I can't just act like nothing has happened.
I have had many other things I have struggled with over the past year that have just added to these feelings as well.
So yeah, that's my story. Part of it anyway. Feel free to PM me and ask anything about whats going on, if you just want to chat or want help. I am someone that will tell you what I think straight, I won't sugar coat, because that doesn't help anyone.
xx
- Details
- Here for
- Like to help and be helped
- Relationship status
- Single
- Ethnicity
- Caucasian/White
- Education
- In Limbo between High School and Uni
- Zodiac sign
- Sagittarius
- Interests
- Hobbies
- Sailing, violin, music, reading, drawing, going out with friends.
- Music
- Anything that floats my boat.
- Movies
- Anything but horror.
- Favorite quotes
- "Life is like a box of chocolates...you never know what you are going to get".
