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Anorexia sucks. - March 17th 2013, 11:27 PM
So I have to gain weight in order to exercise (diagnosed with anorexia). Exercising is such a massive part of my live, I neeeed my basketball. But losing weight has always been soo important to me.

I'm so depressed.
I want to be skinny. Honestly I just want to be skinny. It hurts so bad to gain weight that I will cry. Sometimes I just feel that I'd rather kill myself than be at a stupidly high "healthy weight".

I slept till noon all march break and I just felt crappy all the time. I'm just so sad now. I don't want to be sent to an inpatient clinic, I can't miss school, and I can't miss work. But I'm sooo upset all the time and it sucks. Sometimes I do just want to end it so I don't have to be fat.. but then my parents would be so sad. Why can't they just let me be skinnyyy. Uggh I'm so mad.