[BleedingLullaby]

I stopped cutting for a while, then I started again. This time I haven't been doing my arms or wrists so much because it's easier to get caught. I've mostly been cutting my thighs, and now I think I'm addicted to it. I don't know, and this is going to sound weird, but I enjoy the pain when I do it. I keep finding reasons to do it, because I like it, just like a drug addiction. I really want to stop because it's hurting my friends and they've been doing all they can to help. I just keep lying to them and hiding it from them. When they find out, they're so hurt, not only by the fact that I'm doing it, but also because I lied. Then they start to cut again, which makes me feel guilty. Once I feel guilty I just cut again. It's like a really sad cycle that I can't stop. If you know any ways to quit cutting, please tell me. I don't want "snap a rubber band on your wrist instead" because it doesn't work for me.
Thanks so much, in advance. x