You verbally abused me, then blamed me for your pain. I hate that a part of me takes that blame.
You're the one who cut yourself. It was your decision, and I didn't make you do it. Part of me is annoyed that you're over 3 weeks self harm free, because
you don't want to recover. Your self harm is only getting better because your
ED is getting worse. You want your disorder, and here I am, fighting to get better. But I have no right to begrudge you going 3 weeks without cutting. Most of me is glad about it, because it shows that you are better off without me. It confirms that I made the right choice for both of us when I left. I'm almost 8 weeks self harm free, and I'm fighting so hard to keep my record better than yours. I'm winning.