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Thanks y'all. It's just hard cuz I've been taken off my antidepressant that I've been on for 2 years. I went back on it today. But I've hurt myself a few times since the first relapse incident. I've tried the alternatives and idk they just aren't working. And I had a shrink for a year and then my mom said I was better and to stop. So we stopped. I don't wanna see the shrink again. I wanna be strong and independent. But I keep having self harm incidents and anxiety attacks so I had to go back on my medicine. I can't stop pulling out my hair too. Idk y but its just like I feel like I have to do it to feel fine. I feet anxious when I don't. Idk if that's some kind of problem people have or a disorder but I can't stop. Even when my hair is in a ponytail or bun. I've done it ever since 3rd grade. It's so gross and weird and I'm constantly getting thin patches I have to hide. My hair dresser noticed it and I had to lie to her. I hate all if it but idk how to stop