hey there.. so sorry that happened to you
you don't deserve any of it.. and it's surely not your fault! and the sexual abuse and rape doesn't define who you are. it doesn't take away your worth even though at times your mind will lie to you and tell you that somehow you're worth less because of what happened to you...
don't give up! it's a daily struggle.. it's great that your family is supporting you some, and i know that they love you very very much even though they may not know what to do or say sometimes
stay safe.. the pain and depression will come and go, though most of the time it'd affect longer than you would hope...
i hope for you that you've an easier time ahead